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          💤🤳☎️🔔🔊🚒🚑🚔🚛🤬😡💣     THE HASSLE OF LIFE,  YEAH , SOME NEED IT TO SURVIVE.  I HAVE SOMEONE THAT CAN’T TAKE THE  QUIET & PEACE I SEEK OUT  . HE GOES  TOTALLY BONKERS EVERYTIME I SAY THINGS LIKE,  TAKE IT EASY,  CALM DOWN, PLEASE.  OR LET’S HAVE DINNER IN MY YARD IT’S SO PEACEFUL WITH THE TREES AND FLOWERS, BIRDS &  BEAUTY. NO NO NO YOU KNOW THAT I DON’T LIKE THAT STUFF SHARON THAT’S FOR OLD PEOPLE THATS FOR DEAD PEOPLE BUT MY FRIEND WE ARE OLDER YOU ARE ALMOST 80 I’M ALMOST 70 . MY FAMILY TOOK DINNERTIME AS A OPPORTUNITY TO ARGUE,  BATTLE THE TABLE, IN MY MIND WAS A BATTLEFIELD. I DREADED THE ONSLAUGHT OF TEARS EVERY NIGHT, THROAT CLOSING UP STIFFNESS OF MY BODY. I SWORE LIFE WOULD BE BETTER LATER FOR ME.

             😍😘😇👨‍🎓🕴👤💏💘       I MET GENE,  HE SAW IT , HE SAW IT ALL TOO MUCH  . GENE GOT ME OUT LOVED & PROMISED  TO PROTECT ME .MARRIED ME TOOK THIS LITTLE GIRL TO PARADISE TWO BLOCKS DOWN FROM MY ABUSERS THE  START OF A NEW LIFE OF A DIFFERENT KIND OF WAY  LIVING, TALK OF BETTERING ONESELF THROUGH COLLEGE CLASSES PURSUING DREAMS AND GOALS.  MEDITATION & STUDYING ALL RELIGIONS. BUT A MAN WAY TOO BUSY FOR THINGS LIKE WASHING DISHES, WASHING CLOTHES  THROWING OUT GARBAGE OR VACUUMING CARPETS OR DUSTING BUT THAT’S WHERE I WOULD COME IN.  A VERY  YOUNG  PHYSICALLY ,EMOTIONALLY BATTERED CHILD WOULD NEVER SEE THIS NEW KIND OF LOVE AS. A DIFFERENT FORM OF ABUSE ONLY GRATEFULNESS &DEEP AFFECTION FILLED THE ONCE BROKEN HEART ( FOOD TO EAT & NO BEATINGS) MARRIAGE WAS GREAT.

           🍽🍖🍳🚰🚮🛏🧘‍♂️🤼‍♂️🤸‍♀️🐔😪🤐🙉🙈🙊     SHARON,  WE WILL  NOT HAVE A HOME, WE WILL NOT HAVE  FRIENDS  YOU WILL NOT DRIVE & THERE WILL NEVER BE ANY CHILDREN!!!!!  UNDERSTAND??  HAPPY WEDDING DAY! OH YES I  UNDERSTAND, I LOVE YOU DARLING. BEAUTIFUL DAY IN OCTOBER BUT NO WHITE GOWN OR CHURCH NO FLOWERS OR PICTURES NO MUSIC OR GUEST’S BUT  ( THE WORDS WERE  SPOKEN  I LOVE YOU  )  THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERED . HUSBAND LOOKED SO HANDSOME 43 YRS OLD  I  18YRS OLD  SKINNY  PALE FRIGHTENED KID ,DEAD MOTHER IN LAWs BROWN THREE PIECE SUIT CUT DOWN FIVE SIZES TO FIT HER BLACK SHOES THREE SIZES TOO BIG STUFFED WITH PAPER.  GOT MY HAIR DONE IN THE MORNING FOR FIVE DOLLARS  OFCOURSE IT WAS $9 DOLLARS  BUT I DIDN’T GET THAT MUCH FROM HUBBY TO BE SO WONDERFUL  beautician HAD TO FORGIVE.  NO ONE ON EARTH WAS HAPPIER THAN I ON THIS DAY . IT WAS A TUESDAY TWO DAYS  AFTER MY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY BECAUSE OF BLOOD TESTS  AMAZING. HUBBY FOUND  A CONSTRUCTION  WORKER ALCOHOLIC MINISTER AND HIS ALCOHOLIC WIFE TO BE MY MAIDEN OF HONOR  WHICH HAD TOLD ME WEARING ANY KIND OF MAKEUP OR JEWELRY  WOULDN’T BE ALLOWED IN HER HOUSE BECAUSE IT’S EVIL   SO CERTAINLY I. NOW WOULD DEFINITELY LOOK LIKE TWELVE YEARS OLD  GREAT!!!! BUT I WAS SOOO HAPPY,  LETS GET MARRIED  AND OUT OF HERE GO TO YOUR APARTMENT  ,FAST, HAD A LITTLE  RECEPTION CHANGE CLOTHES TO NAVY BLUE  SUIT BEAUTIFUL SMALL WEDDING CAKE 93 YR OLD  NEW FATHER IN LAW  IN THE KITCHEN SINGING  WAY MARIE IN ITALIAN  DRUNK  EPILEPTIC DOG VERY  HAPPY RUNNING AROUND THE PLACE.  SHARON MARINUCCI  COULDN’T BE MORE ELATED BUT NO FAMILY CAME, HUBBY HAD TO GO GET MY GRANDMA BECAUSE UNCLE WOULDN’T BEING HER, MOTHER WAS AFRAID FATHER WOULD BEAT HER UP AGAIN MY TWO LITTLE BROTHERS CERTAINLY DIDN’T COME EITHER. LANDLORD AND WIFE NO SHOW ,GREAT FRIENDS OF HUBBY NO SHOW BUT A WEALTHY 85 YR OLD NEIGHBOR AND HIS 26 YR OLD GIRLFRIEND DID HA HA , BUT HUBBY’S BROTHER A WIFEY CAME IN ,WOW, SHE TOOK ME ASIDE A POINTED OUT THE LAUNDRY UP TO THE CEILING ,THE DISHES IN THE KITCHEN EVERYWHERE AND THE GARBAGE TO THE CEILING, AND I STARTED TO CRY AND SOB, HANDSOME HUBBY CAME OVER, ” WHATS WRONG MY BEAUTIFUL BABY ” WELCOME TO MARRIED LIFE !!

😁😀😃😄 BUT IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY NOT A HONEYMOON NOT EVEN PHOTOS BUT MY LOVE WAS SOOO STRONG MY SAVIOR MY PARTNER MY EVERYTHING I WOULD DIE FOR YOU IN A MINUTE . WE WERE ON OUR WAY BUT HUBBY WAS MUCH TO exhausted FROM WATCHING ME CLEAN HIS HOUSE ON OUR WEDDING NIGHT , THEN TO INTRODUCE ME TO ROMANTIC PLEASURE, BUT I LOOKED LOVELY IN NEW LITE MINT GREEN SILK NIGHT GOWN THE DOG ( LADY THOMASINA OF BRUNSWICK ) SEEMED TO LIKE IT AND HUBBY’S 93 YR OLD FATHER WHO COULDN’T SPEAK ENGLISH CAUGHT A GLIMPSE OF ME CRYING IN THE BATHROOM ON HIS WAY TO TAKE A LEAK ON THE FLOOR. I CRIED MORE AND WOKE UP HUBBY SO NOW HE HAD TO TAKE A LEAK TOO ,,, MISSED THE BOWL AND WILL FOR THE NEXT 45 YEARS TOGETHER . FIND THE F – – – ING HUMOR IN EVERYTHING OR WILL NOT BE ABLE TO EXIST IN SITUATIONS LIKE THIS . OH , BY THE WAY I FOUND NEW HUBBY GENO HAD SOMETHING IN COMMON WITH THE PARENTS HE ALSO TOOK THE OPPORTUNITY OF DINNERTIME TO ARGUE UNTIL MY TEARS flowed profusely. LATER ON I LEARNED TO TAKE MY FOOD TO THE DINING ROOM SET TABLE FOR ONE WITH FLOWERS FAKE BUT SO WHAT, AND TRY TO,,, TO FINELY EAT IN PEACE BUT CERTAINLY THE shouts words came flying through and eat by yourself and leave me in the kitchen to eat alone and I’d learn to bring the TV in and put it on the table and a great show a comedy was on then called The Odd Couple with Tony Randall and Jack Klugman I love them both and my tears of pain turned into tears of laughter and hubby heard me I need to take his food out and it come and sit next to me at the table and we would both laugh thank you dear dear God he had the great education he had the degrees he had the 25 years older than me he lived he was the great musician that worked all over the world he was so good at those things it was the best salesman in the world 30 years we worked for Publishing Company after that in our homes and our apartment’s never home he was a cop he was everything he was great he had many many acquaintances but no friends I have no acquaintances and no friends how apropos the show was called The Odd Couple but I learned and here I am all alone in my home that I bought and paid for with my animals almost 50 years later and now I watch The Odd Couple and I laugh same stories this then the only thing is this man isn’t with me and I miss him greatly he became my father my mother my brother my everything the end was hard but this is hard to I finally got my PEACE , I LOVE YOU GENE I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH I WISH FOR THAT WEDDING NIGHT BUT UNFORTUNATELY YOU WERE TOO BUSY BEING YOU . I GO TO SLEEP ALONE I WAKE UP ALONE I EAT ALONE I DON’T HAVE TO BE ALONE , BUT I WILLINGLY WOULD HAVE TAKEN YOUR BULLSHIT FOREVER BUT NOT ANYONE ELSE’S. SOMETIMES HAPPY ALONE. ODD GENE DIED EATING BREAKFAST AUGUST 4TH HAPPY 94TH BIRTHDAY ON AUGUST THE 6TH LOVE YOU , YOU HANDSOME GORGEOUS SELFISH MOMMA S BOY . YOU WILL ALWAYS OWN MY BROKEN HEART , I WILL MEET YOU AGAIN AND THIS TIME WE WILL FO IT ALL DIFFERENT ,,, MY WAY !!!! 💖💏🤴👸

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